I Miss.......

That's it... all I got to say.... I miss him......... Maybe I was wrong...... You shouldn't miss someone you wouldn't get along with, right?

IDK anymore... be nice if he'd stay out of my dreams....... be even nicer if he'd fucking txt/call me.........

so in other news
here is a picture of me, yesterday, actually for real smiling
for all those that think I don't ever smile

I Like This

IDK why I just really like this picture of me

I don't really have much to post...
I don't really like today
but I'm trying

also I'm taking donations to get my mom to ren fest this year

(www.texrenfest.com)

so please donate at 

(any amount helps any extra goes to pay mine & mom's storage bill from hell)

Little Do Many of You Know

I do some epic things with my phonecam....

Mostly only seen by Lovers, and those that would be Lovers if near

*heart* them much

(& everything else goes to twitpic)

I just wrote this...

so it doesn't have a title yet... and I haven't corrected much

but I likes it

the desire

the unspoken

the look in her eyes

as she seems to devour everything she sees

lustful wishes

aching needs

calling dreams

so many things unseen

a look screaming

fuck me, fuck me, fuck me please

a flash of skin

a soft silent grin

a name, a smell, a taste

all wrapped up in the need of desire

wrapped in the want of the ache

quiet breezes traveling over the skin

eliciting exciting moans

begging for bruises

wishing for the sharp edge of teeth

mark me, mark me, mark me please.....

Last Few Times of REAL fun & Babble

these are 2 months ago.... oddly enough I was sick both times... but shit hasn't been the same in a long time...

IDK why

ERASEtheVIRUS show

look them up, great friends of mine, and great music

myspace.com/erasethevirus

when my bangs where pure white......

a pile never again to be repeated sadly

ERASEtheVIRUS singer Navasatis (in white) and guitar player Hardy

me and Hardy playing around with a bottle of Vodka... Naughty us...

Hardy in his clown mask playing

Then

there was DareWare's Summer Sin Masqurade Ball

where we got to see the Hottie Perish.... but I was sick so he just got a hug... didn't wanna make him sick too :(

(I'm in the blue... I made that mask my damned self)

FilthyStitches and I

Perish on stage

me fucking off

Mishell & I

Since then.... I had my birthday which was really great in many ways but not entertaining.. the music at my fav bar sucked that night

I lost my bestfriend to lies and bullshit she actually believed... though she apologized I don't know how to let go her lying to me, more than once...

I lost the newest sexi guy I was sleeping with in the same week.. he ran off because he mistakenly believed I was falling for him simply because I told him I liked him and would be happy to spend time with him outside of being around mutual friends and fucking

oh and because I teasingly say things like "becareful if you do that too good I might fall in love"

though we were in NO way compatible outside of friends.. a clean freak who doesn't like pets... I've got 6 pets and can't be a clean freak to save my life.... Of course it didn't help that my now ex bestfriend was talking shit about me to him behind my back


*side note: or so it was said........... weeks later, writing this note, I've come to another theory, but it's too private to share... maybe I was wrong............*

Note to the World... I'm not good at being in love, I'm even worse at monogamous relationships, and I totally fucking suck at dating...

that is all...

Now accepting applications for a new female bestfriend in the area, preferably one that likes to drive and doesn't listen to bullshit from other people...

I'd accept applications for a new lover... BUT those requirements are hard to meet... to begin with they must be 28 or older, Extremely talented at something, and hot... hot to me at least...

The Things I Can Do With A WebCam

more products of boredom.. and I finished my book and don't feel like picking another yet

but this.. this is what I can do with a webcam and timer hehe

First Post.........

So I've nothing to really say or post....

I was bored and created this...

So I guess I'll start with a post I can only get away with here.... hehehe

But you should all go to www.RowdyGirlNation.com & go to their Boutique where you can find these sets

Love my girl Cristi Cain, good friend of mine, she's the lovely photographer of most of these sets, except that one of my licking Blood off of her

we've great fun together, drinking and shooting

and

creating things like this