I miss you like a Light misses the Dark...

"Monogamy is like saying you'll only eat rocky road flavor ice cream for the rest of your life..."

but what is rocky road ice cream is the only flavor that understands you?

I can't say that I ever could or couldn't be... I've learned better than anyone that I'm capable of things I've never suspected.. I asked my mom today if she thought such a thing were possible for me (being with just one person).. and she looked at me most doubtful until I brought up the point that no one I've ever tried being with ever understood or accepted me for me... They've all loved something they wanted me to be.... She agreed this is one of the main problems of my unhappiness. How could it not be?

I will tell you there is someone in my world right now that I really like... that I knew I liked too much with in two days of talking to them... They make my heart do fluttery things, my skin flush, takes interest in my art and teaching me new things... at my own pace...

That the heart wrenching I experience when I think of them being some other way with me than we are (unless it's more), is enough to make anyone consider if it could be.. Can it be?

I now glow in pictures, more than is normal for me

For all my dark and demented ways you'll find me smiling more now.. Life in ways has a whole new out look, that I've never seen before... and I've never been more excited over it.

I cannot tell you where life is going in these coming months... but I feel the end of this year brings something big...
I also know that once I make up my mind... it's set

Each day this mind becomes more and more set..

I've never known someone that's known me better... I've never known someone that can intuitively know my life and experiences.. not just sexual preferences..