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I guess it's time for a new post

I'll make all things short and sweet (I think)

Lots of fun stuff going on at The Dangerous Dolls
I'm staff, go me!... lmao
I encourage all pretty girls to apply cas we're fun

I went and seen Micah, and had great times in Philly with Gumby
Shot with Bob Coulter, and Dastardly Dave while I was there

Celebrated my Birthday with Micah here

 Went and Seen the Smashing Pumpking play (last month), and met Billy Corgan and the crew, sadly KB was not there

Went back to Philly, stay with Gumby again (epic epic times, I didn't want to leave Philly one damned bit)... Found out Micah cheated on me, and had been lying to me about liking this girl... Big mess there but we're working through it... I still just don't know how I feel about it... I'm angry about being lied to... and confused by the whole ordeal... how do you get hard and fuck a girl knowing you're lying to the one you love?? *puzzled look*
he's doing anything and everything he can to make up for it though

went to Ren Fest.. which was epic, I'm working on making my outfit more epic and we're going another day next month if we can save up the money


Halloween will be spent with ERASEtheVIRUS
I will be a fetish nun... srs catholic and christian ppl will be offended... yes I'll post pics


I've been sick off and on for weeks, but I'm getting better.... I think that's all that's new in the life of Kitty

let me know if there is anything more anyone wants to hear about <3

An Actual Update With Words

So... IDK how long this update will be or what it will contain as I really don't have tons of time.. & I'd rather be napping cas my mouth hurts... but I won't jump ahead to that story... lets start from the last blog post....

I'm sure all sorts of crazy minor shit happened.. but you have to read my twitter or FB/Myspace Statuses to be in on that.....

I had epic times in Salem & NH with my Micah... That male is srsly loved dearly... I miss him cooking for me even... I miss the companionship and even the understanding when we're apart... and most of all I love that when I do miss him, he misses me just as much...
He also takes tons of pics of me, so...
I'm working on figuring out something for my website gallery... cas idk about the one I got I only kinda like it... the one I'm looking at is only 40$ so if anyone wants to Donate to ease of Photoness, that'd be epic awesome...

I had an epic epic photoshoot with Dastardly Dave while there... which can be seen in my Tumblr blog links... And also had time for a DIY that will be on www.thedangerousdolls.com soon... along with tons of other things

so after all my week epicness and pretty scenery and being with someone I love that loves me

I came home.. (of course) and spent like 3-4 days making my mom a cake for her birthday (28th)
she helped, and others helped
first time working with fondant, but we used a marshmallow one we made.... it was a dark chocolate fudge table, covered in a orange flavored purple fondant "cloth" with 6 butter-creme cake tarot cards/almond flavored fondant, & a red velvet cake crystal ball with mint flavored fondant, also I made the crystal ball stand out of rice crispy treats, and molded it with butter flavored fondant....
it came out pretty okay though for the first time working with fondant....


Now it's pet and house care till I leave for Philly Friday
Got fun times planned with a friend, and some EPIC shoots coming with Bob Coulter... and Joshua Darling... (Darling better make his way out there, that shoot is still 50/50 chance) possibly MojoKiss
and see long time epic friends I've never seen... I hope to see my BessJin <3

& back home on Thursday

then maybe that 1-2 day trip late July

AND THEN I see my Micah again <3
he talked about getting a place here and maybe visiting once a month or so... <3 I'd so love that... 

Adventures, Loves, Updates, Thoughts....

I haven't updated anyone in awhile so I'll blog things

I've changed names, and there are new ones, so you can guess who I'm talking about but names don't matter anyway.

I'm tired... I've been moving things for family for 3 weeks now... it's driving me crazy... today was a surprise move... my niece's babys daddy didn't pay their rent like he said, and her preggy self is away with her mother/my oldest sister... So mom, middle sis, little step sis, brother with a broken foot and one of my cousins (one of the good ones) went and moved all her things... When we got there he apparently just left... candles burning and a glass of ice cold water on the counter.... what a douche....

I need to get out of the house... it's been three weeks and I'm dying... Kinda missing Darkness too "Just a little bit" idk why I miss that one but I do, I really love the way he holds me in his sleep... Like I keep every bad dream in the world away being the worlds hottest teddy bear... Only one I ever have to ask for time with.. I'm so used to being asked...

I leave in a week in a half to see my Micah <3 he's taking me to Salem for a break and I'm going to do some photoshooting with Dastardly Dave while I'm there.. I've never been to Salem before.... I'm excited... Plus Micah is well.. Him <3 Him (yes the nickname comes from LKH books, okay so most of them do... I can't help it... tell you one thing though.. were the fuck is my Jean Claude?) I miss his sushi... and cuddles... and understanding, and kisses... I mean I know I get it all the same far away.. but when frustratingly lonely I really miss it.... In you my heart often finds a safehouse..

 

then I come home and it's friends birthday the day after I get home... so hopefully I can find a way to the party... 

on a side note.. Goth Puppy... is totally crazy... she's like the energizer panda... idk where she gets all the energy and she's sooo tiny

I go visit Philly in July to see someone who's net nickname I haven't figured out yet, for great times and relaxation cas I'm POKEY! (don't ask)..... and more photoshoots...

THEN

later that month I'll be seeing Richard.. And yes this one is renamed.. guess away...
hopefully anyway... I'm tired of carrying around his present from last Christmas.... It'll be nice to give it to him... I miss him... I try not to but I do.. I know I can't be the white picket fence and 2.5 kids he wants... But I miss him all the same, it's hard not to when someone understands your soul enough not to try to force you into what they want, but goes on loving you... More distant but loving all the same... I miss when he wasn't distance... I miss the random txts missing me

Life is good, but it's still hard... Finances still suck but not as bad... I still can't make real local friends for shit.. All those capable and loving of me are far away.... And I still CRAVE social situations and being out to the point where 2-3weeks without get me depressed....

and so few things depress me
 
I've started remembering my dreams again... months and weeks with only occasional ones and hints...
Now.. All I see is zombies, dead ppl, weird shit, confusing one part scenes...........
My sleep is exhausting.. I wake up feeling dead...

on a work note, I <3

despite all the crap with DD that others have tried to pull these last two months.. we're still strong and independent and ALL the models actually get paid despite lies told and mud slung at us... which is more than many places can honestly claim... I'm sad at all the girls who believed the lies... I'm sorry you're not involved enough to think for yourselves and discover the truth, the actual truth.. not what other ppl are feeding you...



I want to make it to NYC sometime this year.. Got two ppls I want to shoot with... One of them to torment ;) and my BFF of like 7 yrs I've never met in person to meet...


I get asked a lot about those I love and the way I love.. You never love two people the same way in your entire life... I'll never love anyone the way I love any of them.. I've never and will never love any of them like one another... Sometimes one reaches your heart, while another pulls at your soul, and one is teasing your mind, and the other just makes you lose control... Someone once told me that they thought polyamory was a series of one night stands... I hope I've taught them differently.. I'm a healer at heart, a teacher, and a listener.. I use my love and body to heal.. I know no differently... Much like Jacqueline Carey's Phedre in the Kushiel series.. Nimaah's way is deep within me... ... Though I never knew someone I understand as well as I do Laurell K Hamilton's Anita Blake... I love Books... They teach so much if you know what you're looking for.. If you know what you need...

"I'd learned that love could mean many things, & no matter how similar it looked from the outside, inside it could feel very different. Good still, but different"

They say life is what you make of it... I try to make everything of mine.. Even when stuck at home....

for those of you reading this that tweet me... what do you think about Kitty with a monroe piercing, on the right (my right)
it's my latest self debate.....

So....

today I cleaned tons and I'm tired

nothing much to update just yet but TONS of things are going on

NSFW Previews

Previews of My new set “SEXting” coming SOON to @DangerousDolls - www.thedangerousdolls.com

Fucked Phone, Tarot Cards & Cupid

Alive in 2010

for christmas I cooked for 5 days

for new years eve I went out with friends
I couldn't drink and I got a kiss on the cheek....

I got an offer to fulfill any sex fantasy I have... though will see if the one offering will hold true to his word...
it's hard to believe someone that supposedly misses you but refuses to txt you....

I miss my Fav... he's been quiet lately.. grumpy.. in his unhappy mode... something I'd happily pull him out of if he'd just come to me...

I've been sick since... shit I don't know.. like the week before christmas... Fever's that come and go like when I was little... I blame the cold weather....

all in all... I'm alive... not overly happy, still broke, still lonely... still, still, still... want more, more, more.... lol